The Art of Smiling

Long ago, I already master the art of faking
Faking that I am fine
Faking that I am well
Faking that I am happy
Faking that everything is all right
Fooling everyone with my smile
But I am not fine
I was never fine
I was broken inside and no one can see it
No one tries to ask
Are you happy behind your smile?

In this world full of mouth
I become the ears
I listen to your story
I listen to your problem
Without any second thought and hesitation
I was there
But have you ever wonder why I was willing
Why I was always there ready to listen?
Perhaps no
Cause all you see is my smile

The answer is simple
I know the pain when no one is there
When no one listens
When no one hears your cry
When no one sees your tears
And the most painful
When no one understands

So tell me how can I tell them my pain
When no one can even see right pass your smile
No one can even say that’s a fake smile
When society rejects the monster inside you
When people frown upon this monster
That is why the art of pretending has been mastered
But I’m waiting that someone like a storm would come
Wipe the smile and see the tears falling
And asked me that question
If I am Okay

 

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Wonderlust: Bantayan Island

Nothing more to say but it was incredible escape out of the jungle concrete! Out of my law books and escaping out of everything on what we called life. It was really a paradise for me. (Since everything in my life is all about work and study.) But anyways, Bantayan Island, I think, can be fully appreciated if you went there during offseason. No large crowd, not so many tourist and you can really see the beauty of the island. So I won’t write much cause I believe lots of amazing reviews have been written. But I swear everything is worth it! Next time I want to go there with my future husband. Don’t forget to do the cliff jumping! It was one hell of an experience! 

Directions

We went there via private car and I was asleep the entire duration because the day before I had an exam and I haven’t got enough good sleep. But still, from Cebu City, we went to Hagnaya Port. (If you are taking bus, go to North Bus Station) From the port (if you don’t plan to take the car to the island you can park it overnight people offer that kind of service  it will only cost you 150php.) The ferry to Santa Fe (Bantayan Port) would cost you 170php. (To be honest, I don’t remember but there is a discount for the SP and other valid id promos.) Once reaching the port the accommodation that you book (if you did) will be there waiting for your arrival and escort you to the hotel/inn you have booked. From there you can enjoy all the amenities on the island. 

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Sigh

Sigh

Your sigh
Now I knew
It means your hard work
I’m sorry
I thought it was nothing but lack of interest
Perhaps annoyance
But you made me realize
Someone sigh
A heavy breath
Is from all the hardship
From the pain
From losing someone
T might be anything
But please I’m begging you
Give me a sign of happiness
A contentment
So take a deep breath
Cause I’m hear
I will hold on to you
I will carry that burden with you

 

Right Time, Right Moment

Right Time, Right Moment 

I’m falling fast
Deeply in love
I tryna hold it back
But you keep my heart going
The moment I saw your eyes
I see my lonely soul wrap with light
I’m falling head over heels
Falling to fast deeply in this love
I know this was the right moment
You, it’s you
At the right time
And the right moment

That night
The moon shines so bright
In that old street
Like the movies of old
I saw you
I didn’t know I was holding my breath
You smiled back and the world tilted
You, it’s you
At the right time
At the right moment

Everything I dream is right here
Your the sunlight in my grey world
Your the color in this dull world
Your the air I breath
Everything that you are is all I dreaming of
I’ll give up everything for you
Falling too fast, I know
But your all I need
Because that moment
The moment I meet you
You know it was the right time
At right moment

 

Purgatory of Cartagra

rengoku-no-karutagura-4565407Cartagra – The garden of judgment where the contractor bearers battle for the king’s ring.

A boy named Yuuki who doesn’t believe in God or the Devil. On the school he was attending a circulation of demon worshipper sacrificing someone emerges as different rituals were being conducted and animals have been sacrificed. One day, she meets this girl who apparently is a bearer. (Bearer is the term called to those people who made contracts with demons to do their bid and fight for the King’s Ring.) However, Yuuki did not believe and on the same night she saw a girl walking outside school dorms bothered by this he follows her and saw she is about to commit suicide. She actually committed suicide when she jumps the school’s roof and Yuuki was unable to save her. By twisted plotted fate the girl landed on some ritual circle of which summon Belial (if your worth enough of him and his power) offering Yuuki and tempting wish to bring his parents back from the dead. (Yuuki actually had his parents die right by his own eyes and his seeking udgment that is why he wants to be a prosecutor.) But instead of that wish he asked for the girl Amatsuki (the one who committed suicide) to be brought alive from dead. But demons cannot miracles from nothing. So in exchange of the girl life was Yuuki’s soul. And so the the fight of the Cartagra begins. Yuuki later then discovered that Belial is the one of the two highest rank demon the other one being Bael (which is not handsome as Belial and also twisted.)

But what if the truth will be revealed. That everything was only a play and a game. A bet wage by Devil and Angels of God. And what if Yuuki knews he was the reincarnation of Solomon who almost attain the King’s Ring. With the Devil betting the punishment of whatever heavens deemed fit for him and in return if he wins Lucifer will ascend into heaves. And the begin begun the moment Yuuki was born. Who will win?

 

Contract Bearers Story

rengoku-no-karutagura-5435293.jpgYuriya Yuuki – at young age he saw the death of is parents being murder infront of him. He was also shot but by luck the criminal ran out of ammo resulting only to his serious inury that lead to almost death. He made contract with Belial of which he was summoned by ritual and has the ability of to control the purgatory hell fire.

Sayaka Amatsuki – the girl who comited suicide and was saved by Yuuki. Apparently she is a more than meets the eye. She can hear and see the shape of a person’s heart and absorbs their pain. It was then that when she was saved by Yuuki in exchange for his soul that only her can relieve Yuuki from the pains while using Belial’s power.

Honoka Akishiro – Yuuki roomate and eventually become a bearer in contract with Bael that can control the rain and lightning. He admire Yuuki. Her wish was to see his mother and in exchange for that is the death of his grandfather whom he had thought was preventing him from seeing her mother. Only to find out that it was his grandfather who loves him deeply and was the one sending him letters under the guise of his mother name. He was kept away because his mother does not want him. That it was his grandfather that was happy that he was born while his mother actually wants for his abortion.

rengoku-no-karutagura-5434115Kirio Aoi – contract with Asaroth who can control the snakes and paralysis. His wish was to play piano and in exhcnage granted for this was the permanent loss of his bestfriend to play the piano. He appararenlty was defeated and was release from his contract. But appararently the mircale/wish that was granted will cease also to exist once the contract has been completed and broken.

Rintarou Kirishima – he was in alliance with Kirio. He made contract with Agaser who is more secializing in information. His wish was to save his sister.

 

 

 

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The Purgatory of Cartagra opens the curtain for Takahashi Ryo’s debut work in the supernatural genre. It is also known as Rengoku No Karatugura is a short manga with only 10 episodes. (Yup, pretty short. And the first time since from the long time I have read manga and write my review.) For me, the story is interesting and very evily twisted. I actually thought at first that Yuuki might be Lucifer’s reincarnation or sort of something but turns out he was Solomon’s reincarnation. Anyway, the story is interesting and painful. It reflects our wish and what could or might happen if we made a deal with the devils. Like what Asaroth said, “Only God can make permanent miracle and demons miracle cannot be made without nothing.” Pointing out that is you want something you need to sacrifice something in return but this is not permanent. It’s actually and interesting manga

Go have a read. It won’t really cost you an hour.

Perfect Man

Time doesn’t stop
Crime doesn’t stop
So I won’t stop till I’m sitting on top
I won’t go through the ordeal of not having you
Even if my breath ends
I will never leave your side
I want it to be you
Cause you’re the only one
I’ll have you, my perfect man
Till I drop

Adonis

Your dazzling image makes me stop in place
Rooted and unmoving
From your head to toes, everything is perfect
The moment you passed me by
Wordlessly
You light up this dull color world
Your beauty is fantastic
Your heaven sent fallin’ down
Your level is different
Even comparing you to anything might be a sin
Even by looking at your showdown
Was more than a blessing