I’m Sending You Off, You Did Well

That heavy breath
Can I possibly understand what it means
All I knew you are hurting
All I knew there is pain
All I knew, no I knew nothing
That hurt inside of you
That void inside of you
That emptiness in your heart
I want to comfort you
Even if it is only in words
Even if it meant nothing now
I want to tell you its okay

Your sigh
If only I knew what it means back then
But I was fooled by your smile
I was fooled by the happy angel
I was oblivion behind that shining star
Lies a thousand, no million hurts
I thought you are okay
Little did I knew your killing inside
I want to scream at you
But who am I kidding
I don’t know anything
How could I possibly understand

So right now
I want to send you off
You did well
You did well
You save a thousand life
You inspired millions
You put a smile on everyone who you have meet
You did good
So I’m sending you with a smile
I will not cry anymore

From others eye, it might not look okay
Like the small sigh
That can make somebody down
But I knew now
That was from a hard day
From the swirling emotions
So it’s okay
Take a deep breath
Let it out
It’s okay to be out of breath
That heavy breath
I knew now
Your sigh
Although we didn’t know it back then
It’s okay
I will hold you
You’ve worked hard
Rest now
You did well
Kim Jonghyung

 

Thank you, for the 10 years, the laughter, the comfort, and advice you give in the air. Not only to your fans but to everyone who listens to you. Jonghyung who have the voice of an angel, rest now. Time will heal and those you are hurt deeply will smile not might be right now but time will come. – Alex, Shawol.Light.Inspirit

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One Last Time

In the memories of victims of Mancherster Arena bombing and in support to Ariana’s benefit concert. I am your fan from the other side of the world. 

Stay. Stay with me. For one last time even if I didn’t deserve it. One more time, One last time I want to be the one who takes you home. That one who will see you safely to your home. The one that you’ll last see as you close the door. Selfish. The one who is beside you will you open your eyes. The one who will first saw your smile. Can’t you?..

I lied. I gave into the fire. It was my fault. I have you yet it was not enough reason for me to fought. Even if it I know I would loss you yet I choose that decision. I am not proud of that honesty. I don’t want to defend my answer. It was all my fault. I have failed you. I feel like a failure. No scratch that I am a failure. I have failed you. I should have done better than that. Cause you and me don’t want to have a liar love. I should have done better than to give in. Forgive me. 

I don’t deserve you. I know. I know it after all I have done. Who am I to selfishly keep you for myself. I have no more place in your heart. Someone has already replace me. The one who had given you everything I cannot. The one who did everything I cannot. But I don’t care. I don’t care if you had someone else. Selfish as I am. Hear me for one last time. Stay. Stay with me. For one last time even if I didn’t deserve it. One more time, One last time I want to be the one who takes you home. Who will see you safely to your home.

Stay with me a minute, I’ll swear I’ll make it worth it.

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Love is the prelude to disaster and tragedy
People say I’m living my life
In truth inside is dying
As our love story progress
Tragedy attacks
Disaster is thrown like endless stone
Our life was so intertwined
Joined that it cannot be separated
That lossing you to death
Kills my heart
As the end of the book approach
I want to make believe myself
That this is just the first series of the book

I Can’t Forgive Myself So Please Forgive Me

I’d rather have you to be cold to me
Cold so I Can Leave You
Cold so I Can Go Without Looking Back
Cold So That Everything Cannot Go Back to the way it used to be

But even when you do, I think I could but I can’t
Baby, I’m selfish I can’t let go of you
I did you many wrong
I hurt you
I push you
I made everything cruel
I made everything fall apart
Break us into pieces
But I still can’t let go and keep you looked in this twisted love

I Can’t Forgive Myself So Please Forgive Me
So please when I plead don’t listen to me
Don’t listen to my cry
Never turn your back and give me one last glance
Don’t give me a break
Don’t give me a hope
Just be rough with me
So that I can never want you back

 

My Fire

My Fire

Sitting by the red-stained window
Looking at the silent sky
Out of habit, I call your name
Tears silently falls in my eyes
I knew there would be no answer
I knew I can’t see you
Truth damn hurts
I feel so alone

I remember your embraced
You’re whisper in my ear
The smile I see on your lips
You said you’d protect me
I believed you
But without a single goodbye
Without any trace
You were gone

I love you
You’re my fire
Pulled by your warmth
I don’t need anything
You are everything I need
With you everythng is all right
My worries disappear
The night was peaceful
Now I’m lying in this cold bed
Bleeding silently

Days passed by
In a blink of an eye it has been years
All are meaningless days filled with fact your not here
The future we built
Like a tower it fell
Your embrace that held even my despair
Your eyes that looks at me with admiration
Your touch that havoc my system
It all turned to ash

You’re my Fire
The moment you die
So is my heart
I miss you
So much it .. hurts