The Art of Smiling

Long ago, I already master the art of faking
Faking that I am fine
Faking that I am well
Faking that I am happy
Faking that everything is all right
Fooling everyone with my smile
But I am not fine
I was never fine
I was broken inside and no one can see it
No one tries to ask
Are you happy behind your smile?

In this world full of mouth
I become the ears
I listen to your story
I listen to your problem
Without any second thought and hesitation
I was there
But have you ever wonder why I was willing
Why I was always there ready to listen?
Perhaps no
Cause all you see is my smile

The answer is simple
I know the pain when no one is there
When no one listens
When no one hears your cry
When no one sees your tears
And the most painful
When no one understands

So tell me how can I tell them my pain
When no one can even see right pass your smile
No one can even say that’s a fake smile
When society rejects the monster inside you
When people frown upon this monster
That is why the art of pretending has been mastered
But I’m waiting that someone like a storm would come
Wipe the smile and see the tears falling
And asked me that question
If I am Okay

 

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Hallucinations

In this place where I trapped myself
I want to roll in the darkness
What controls me
What lives inside of me
There are so many things inside of me
This monster I keep fighting
The memories I throw away
The love which I had deleted in me
Someone, please wake me up
Find the real me
Help the broken me
I’m trying to erase my nightmares
But I can, rather I won’t
Please find me
To be held and embrace by you
Wake me up
Filled me with you
Leave me not
And finally, kiss me

Sigh

Sigh

Your sigh
Now I knew
It means your hard work
I’m sorry
I thought it was nothing but lack of interest
Perhaps annoyance
But you made me realize
Someone sigh
A heavy breath
Is from all the hardship
From the pain
From losing someone
T might be anything
But please I’m begging you
Give me a sign of happiness
A contentment
So take a deep breath
Cause I’m hear
I will hold on to you
I will carry that burden with you

 

I’m Sending You Off, You Did Well

That heavy breath
Can I possibly understand what it means
All I knew you are hurting
All I knew there is pain
All I knew, no I knew nothing
That hurt inside of you
That void inside of you
That emptiness in your heart
I want to comfort you
Even if it is only in words
Even if it meant nothing now
I want to tell you its okay

Your sigh
If only I knew what it means back then
But I was fooled by your smile
I was fooled by the happy angel
I was oblivion behind that shining star
Lies a thousand, no million hurts
I thought you are okay
Little did I knew your killing inside
I want to scream at you
But who am I kidding
I don’t know anything
How could I possibly understand

So right now
I want to send you off
You did well
You did well
You save a thousand life
You inspired millions
You put a smile on everyone who you have meet
You did good
So I’m sending you with a smile
I will not cry anymore

From others eye, it might not look okay
Like the small sigh
That can make somebody down
But I knew now
That was from a hard day
From the swirling emotions
So it’s okay
Take a deep breath
Let it out
It’s okay to be out of breath
That heavy breath
I knew now
Your sigh
Although we didn’t know it back then
It’s okay
I will hold you
You’ve worked hard
Rest now
You did well
Kim Jonghyung

 

Thank you, for the 10 years, the laughter, the comfort, and advice you give in the air. Not only to your fans but to everyone who listens to you. Jonghyung who have the voice of an angel, rest now. Time will heal and those you are hurt deeply will smile not might be right now but time will come. – Alex, Shawol.Light.Inspirit

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Right Time, Right Moment

Right Time, Right Moment 

I’m falling fast
Deeply in love
I tryna hold it back
But you keep my heart going
The moment I saw your eyes
I see my lonely soul wrap with light
I’m falling head over heels
Falling to fast deeply in this love
I know this was the right moment
You, it’s you
At the right time
And the right moment

That night
The moon shines so bright
In that old street
Like the movies of old
I saw you
I didn’t know I was holding my breath
You smiled back and the world tilted
You, it’s you
At the right time
At the right moment

Everything I dream is right here
Your the sunlight in my grey world
Your the color in this dull world
Your the air I breath
Everything that you are is all I dreaming of
I’ll give up everything for you
Falling too fast, I know
But your all I need
Because that moment
The moment I meet you
You know it was the right time
At right moment

 

Perfect Man

Time doesn’t stop
Crime doesn’t stop
So I won’t stop till I’m sitting on top
I won’t go through the ordeal of not having you
Even if my breath ends
I will never leave your side
I want it to be you
Cause you’re the only one
I’ll have you, my perfect man
Till I drop

Adonis

Your dazzling image makes me stop in place
Rooted and unmoving
From your head to toes, everything is perfect
The moment you passed me by
Wordlessly
You light up this dull color world
Your beauty is fantastic
Your heaven sent fallin’ down
Your level is different
Even comparing you to anything might be a sin
Even by looking at your showdown
Was more than a blessing